sometimes when i feel down or depressed (which seems like happening more often the longer i am in sg), i drive around and i love to walk the deserted malls… you know the ‘heartlands’ shopping place.. i like it because it is like a dream.. in the day you find thousands of people milling around indulge in their lives.. so dense it is, you can hardly find the way through.. except for the hoarding voices, all you hear is noise…

when i walked the empty foyer, i feel the ghost of the public shuffling past and by me.. like an existence that is at once within reach and yet far away.. it is weird.. but it does give me a sense of perspective..

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as i squat beside the cck canal.. i realised belatedly that the river that seems so tranquil is actually moving at a rapid speed.. that even though i was drunk i was in awe that i didnt realise it earlier.. that in fact, life is at once moving even though it seems to have stand the turmoil of time…

dont know why i am writing such depressing stuff.. but, this i do know.. that being alone is the best thing in the world…

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am damn sian that thetalkingcock has gone offline.. i have visited their site since i was 20 and have been a regular devoted patron.. but not sure what happened sia.. hopefully they will come back soon, it is good to have a satire voice in sg